AtomicPup's Xanga

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 05:17:13 GMT

Oh, and my binge drinking issue from last summer has been over since last Sept... :P I was really stressed out about all the changes then. Man I was drinkin alot. Of course, I still know how to party.. but there is a difference ;)

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 05:15:41 GMT

Well after a long absence, here is another blog! I just haven't been in the mood to blog I guess. It's been a while, so I guess there is a lot to catch up on in some ways, hm.. but not really. I've finished my first full year back at A&M and am starting my last year. Grades are decent with overall B average since I've been back. I am working two part time jobs on campus aside from school, so I stay really busy. Lately on the weekends, I've been staying around the house.. me and my roomate Chase generally have friends over on Friday and Saturday night and we watch movies, drink etc and have a good time. I'll write more later. maybe.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 07:54:31 GMT

nothing much new to write about. I dropped math. which has given me more free time..... to get drunk. which I have been doing every day for 7 days now. lol.. im going to marketing and taking great notes tho lol. only one more test and done.. then 2 weeks of nothing. wow... i need to go somewhhere when that happens. lol. at least kristen is back in town. lots of weird shit happening around me it seems lately. doesn't help my state of mind. I don't know, at least when I go out and get drunk, I am getting happy and having a fuckin fun time.

Friday, July 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 00:12:52 GMT

well i have been practicing math forever. I think i'mgoing cross eyed. I am going out again tonight lol... then doing math when I get home. I slept for 6 hours today earlier in order to stay up all nite again. If I don't get at least a high B on this testI am q dropping the course.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 05:45:12 GMT

The bars sucked tonight. SO now I am sitting here sipping on a beer, and about to see if I can tackle some math. either that, or go to sleep. I haven't decided yet. If I dont do math tonight, I sure as HELL can't go out Thurs nite, cause I will sure as hell need 10+ hours of practice time for math. I hate math. and I am extremely stupid for taking it in a summer session. God, if I make a D in this class I will kill myself. I can handle a C... not a D.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 00:38:54 GMT

Well it looks like I am going out tonight. Going to do some math then go out. I should stay up late and do math, but I feel the overwhelming urge to be social. I think that is what my problem is. if I am not around people in a social setting often I go crazy. Dillard's in some weird way somewhat satisfied my social needs, and now I am constantly wanting to go out ...because besides school, all I do is come straight home and sit here. My god I am a needy person. I am a needy person. What a freak! well i guess I was a freak already, so now I am a needy freak. A needy faggy freak. Well thats okay. I can write all that, and not feel it upset me in the least. I think I am getting my feeligns back in check. LOL

I am thinking I might get drunk, then come home and see if its possible to do math while intoxicated. I think I make math more complicated than it actually is, so maybe in that relaxed state I will do better. I doubt it. But its worth a try.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 07:46:29 GMT

its 3:45 am and I have been practicin math problems since 11pm, and workingon homework. at 5 or 6 I am going to start studying for marketing test that is in the morning. I guess when I get home from classes I am going to practice math some more, maybe take a nap.. .but want to spend most of tomorrow practicing math, then going to bed at a normal time. Thursday, if I can practice math some more til 6 or 7 and be pretty comfy with it, I might go out. Dont know yet. Shit, I'm already recognizing the fact I am going to have to be very hard on myself if I am going to do well in school. I have been jobless for only several days, and I already feel my old wild side wanting to be crazy and irresponsible again. I think having a full time job keeps my grounded, but I definately need to learn some discipline.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 09:33:33 GMT

yawn. I am tired.. and yet not. Its 5:30 AM and I have stayed up all nite again! The last time I slept was on Saturday night. and its Tuesday morning. I reviewed for my math quiz tonight. but not really too hard. I don't care right now. Tomorrow after math I am coming home and taking a long long nap and then waking up to study for marketing test, and do math homework. I think I might really dig not going to work anymore.

Veronica and Kristen just left at 5. They came over about 11ish. We watched some funny videos online, and downloaded and listened to music most of the night. Man when the three of us get together we just really bond. its great.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 21:00:02 GMT

Ok. so I feel like talking to myself today. And this time something more positive. You know, I forgot I had this xanga thing. I was reading about my goals to lose the weight I wanted by march-may. well I didn't win that one, but at least I am back at A&M again, which was my other new year goal lol. I have been losing weight NOW though. I don't know how much I have lost so far, but I can notch up my belt buckle a couple of more notches.. thats four total notches inward since January. Although I cant really say I tried very hard January-May I managed a bit of loss. Just in the past month I have lost enough that I can actually notice, something I haven't been able to do in forever, and am finding myself somewhat less critical in front of the mirror. :) The more I lose the more motivated I feel to want to look good and get back in shape. and find me a cute boi. I put on some of my "skinny" clothes (never actually been skinny but you know what I mean) and.. well... at least I can kinda get them on now. HAHA. several months ago I tried to put on some pants I use to love and wear all the time, and I was in such a state of shock of how small they were (meaning: did not even come close to fitting) that I was looking at the tags to see if they were someone else's. I had a good four inch gap between the fly pulling it as tight as possible LOL.

so in a bit I am off to do some cardio crap with Ashley. Now that I am not working I want to go as much as possible.

In other news, I felt like being queer last nite, so I shaved my legs. They are itchy today.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 20:26:29 GMT

Well, I emailed my math teacher to find out what the average was, and the average was two points higher than my grade. So the average was a D too. It makes me feel a little better I guess. LOL. actually a lot better considering most of those students have had math classes in the past MUCH MUJCH MUCH more recently that I have. :)